I seriously want to do smth useful while in NS. Something maybe like further studying or making fast cash over some fl work or whatever else. As long as im utilizing my brain. And i really mean UTILIZING my brain. I cant believe myself that i have become soooo incredibly nua. Until i feel myself so sick and disgusted with myself.

Of coz im nt helped by surrounded with a grp of friends that appeared to me as soooo indifferent from what i used to know of them. If by any means, i rather they dun read this. For they are wayy too sensitive, too emo, too ....... I wish i can use a better channel to present this. This defintely isn't going to help anyway.

Dammm... i juz dunno how to express myself. They must be getting the wrong idea agn. DAMM DAMM DAMM..

OH.. maybe.. maybe we dun have that great common interest.
Newcastle future looks gd hur? (HAHA didn't i said this many times?)
We are buying Geremi, oh god yet another chelski player. He is on a free, i dun mind having him in my squad. At least he's professional enough to not whine about his situation. Good good..