You probably dont care. But i do. And i am still crying after so long.
Enjoy your holiday. :(

You would probably have forgot this space. You may have checked back after we broke. But it doesn't matter now. Everything is just memories for me.

I feel really useless.

This is going to be a deeeeep scar that will never be healed.

i predict cwl will get angry over my twitter comment to sher. muahahah!

Another low (no?) budget MV. But anyway nice song.

Well. It's been sometimes isn't it? You (if there is really anyone reading this) must have thought how come i would want to post something here all of a sudden?

Well.. I.. probably just want to use this space here and rant out my frustrations. I realise a grave mistake today. Okay, i'm going to cut story short and touch onto the main points.

Today i realise on the system that the venue for this sat event (let's call it, DWTS) is not booked and is taken over by by S&M. And yes this sat is the event and we have literally begged/forced (whatever u call it) people to attend this event as nobody signed up.

On first look, yes that was totally my fault as i was asked to do this booking.

Now, i remembered clearly i did the booking and pass the form to the POC. However, the form apparently went missing and after searching through the file, it indeed went MISSING. I have freaking no idea why and how it happens. And yes, there is no proof to show i really did it cause of a 'good' system of writing form and pass it to the POC and she will do the booking on the system.

My point here is. I accept it that it is my fault to not check back in the system. But surely there must be contributory negligence on other people.

1st: Way back, i did advise the team that this event if were to carried out, IT WILL BE A FAILURE. The past 2 similar events already showed that only forcing people to come will there be people. I mean this is a trend that is not hard to interpret right?

2nd: The person in charge of this event who tried his best to change the concept did not succeed and has since left the organistaion. Not because of this incident of course. And suddenly, i was the POC. But i was told to hold and wait first (as usual). And suddenly another person came in and as expected, full of drive and wanted to go ahead with this event. SUddenly and to be honest everything seems pretty much fixed, all the performance confirmed, posters done up.. blah blah blah... This was when i remembered i did the disappearing booking form. I was not in charge of this event at all. And all the sudden change here and there, come on.. so disrupting, how am i really going to monitor this?

3rd: There is this serious flaw in the booking of function rooms. I have voiced this out way back when it just implement. But i just leave with it and move on. Right now, my dept has freaking NO ADMIN RIGHTS to book and cancel our bookings. We need to go through S&M by submitting the form to them. What if, i don't mean it really happen, but what if the form is 'eaten' up by them and they release it for their own use. Nobody really knows. When they confirmed with the client, surely it is too late right?

4th: I don't really have strong support from this team. He seems to be the cause of the problems. But because of so-called 'experience' and past pedigree, we got to live with it and move on along that pace. I would contribute a min. of 25% fault on his part. He just doesn't have that capacity to spearhead the team. Sorry to say this but, i have lost any respect for him since long ago. He has to leave. If not, this team will be forever stuck in this mudhole.

Just like u. =)

Surely this time we are certainly up to where we belong.


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